Kelly Woes

I am in such a strange funk today. And it just hit me out of no where last evening. I can not even pinpoint what is wrong with me. I have tons of guesses, but I'm not 100% sure that those guesses are what is really making my mood so foul.

And I feel so badly for David and Reagan. I am so upset by something that any little thing that Reagan does makes me crazy. Yeah, crazy. That is the only word to describe it. I usually have tons of patience, and I can usually talk calmly to him when he whines (that is the BIG thing right now and today). But today I was horrible. Just horrible. I tried everything to get him to stop whining (about nothing), but he continued to do so.

So I raised my voice. Like, really raised it. Which is something David and I try to never do. But I did it. And that didn't work. That just broke Reagan's spirit. I feel just awful about it.

Then I cried all the way to lunch. And I thought and thought about what could be making me feel like this. I feel overwhelmed for some reason. And I feel like I need a break because I am not enjoying my time with Reagan. And that just isn't right.

I will say that I feel better right now. Reagan and I had lunch with David, and it helped just to talk things out with him. But I feel like my feelings are selfish. Because if I need a break, then David certainly needs a break. My husband works so hard during the work day, comes home and is super-dad with Reagan, and then continues to work until the early morning hours while I try to have adult conversation with him! (Poor guy.)

Ah. Hopefully I'll wake up in a much better mood tomorrow. And I hope I can use the time that Reagan is at school tomorrow to rest my spirit. Because these two guys in my life deserve to have the best mommy and wife that I can be.

My Journey~~Week 8

I weighed in on Sunday, so I am back to my normal day. Hopefully I'll continue to lose this week because I'm getting pretty close to my first goal of losing 25 pounds.

Weight loss: -2 pounds
Total loss: -18.2 pounds
Goals: to survive and get out of my funk; to lose weight (any amount)

Camera Woes

On Easter Sunday, David accidentally left our camera at the park where we did our Easter egg hunt. So I don't have any pictures of Reagan from Easter in his super snazzy suit.

We found what I call our "brick" of a digital camera~~it is about the size and the weight of an actual brick. (I'm exaggerating, but just a tiny bit.) Pardon me, but it takes crappy pictures.

Anyways, Reagan wore his snazzy suit to church again today because it is absolutely FREEZING outside (again, a tiny exaggeration), and I took this opportunity to get some pictures of him looking so handsome.

But the camera takes crappy pics.

I have doctored these the best I could to fill in some light because the originals are soooo dark. Our kitchen floor is NOT yellow. His pants are NOT black, but brown. And Reagan's liver is working just fine...he is NOT jaundice.

I think you can still tell that he IS cute, though.

The Good Life

I am blessed. This is the good life. Popsicles on the back porch with this guy...it can't get much better than that!

Signs of Warmer Weather

I got tired of going in to get Reagan's hair cut every other week or so. So in March I asked the stylist if it was too early to do his summer cut. Even if she had said "yes" I would have had her do the buzz cut anyways.

I asked her to keep it a bit longer since it was still technically winter...a 4 on top and a 2 on the sides.

That meant nothing to me 3 years ago. Now I know that those numbers are the clipper lengths.

I think.

Anyways, that looked cute and short for about 2 weeks. Then he needed another hair cut!!!!

Thank goodness I married a man that has his own grooming tools.

David used a 2 1/2 all over. Whatever that is...

Doesn't that just look incredibly itchy?? According to Reagan, it was.

My Journey~~Week 7 ??

I'm not weighing in this week. But before anyone thinks, "Oh, ok. Here it comes," I am still losing weight according to my scale. I lose a bit every other day.

The reason I'm not weighing in is a complicated one. Well, not so much complicated as it is just a long drawn out excuse.

I started WW on a Sunday after lunch. So when I go there at 2pm on Sunday to weigh in, I have a belly full of lunch~~usually of salad or of a sandwich. But on the days that I haven't been able to get there on a Sunday I go in on Monday at 10am. This is before anything has even entered my mouth...and therefore my tummy is empty.

So I didn't want to go in on Sunday after my huge (yet healthy) sandwich on Sunday just to see a plus sign instead of a minus sign in front of a number. I'm going to use my one "no weigh in pass" this week so I can get back on track of weighing in (with a full belly) on Sundays.

Makes sense, right?

Alone Time

I am having a few minutes home alone right now. David and Reagan went to dinner tonight while I went to a bible study. I obviously got home before they did, because, well, I'm alone.

I've picked up the kitchen mess. I had some dinner (not a satisfying one). I've checked my email and the blogs.

And now I don't know what to do.

Don't take that as I'm bored. I'm really enjoying this time because I have been so busy for the past few days. I would really like to go and sit in front of the tv.

But there is the problem. I know that as soon as I hit the power button on the remote, I will then hear the sound of David's car in the driveway.

And as much as I love those two boys I'm just not ready to hear that familiar sound yet.

So I'm not going to go and turn the tv on. I'm just going to continue to wander around my house hoping that will buy me a few more minutes of alone time.