Kelly Woes

I am in such a strange funk today. And it just hit me out of no where last evening. I can not even pinpoint what is wrong with me. I have tons of guesses, but I'm not 100% sure that those guesses are what is really making my mood so foul.

And I feel so badly for David and Reagan. I am so upset by something that any little thing that Reagan does makes me crazy. Yeah, crazy. That is the only word to describe it. I usually have tons of patience, and I can usually talk calmly to him when he whines (that is the BIG thing right now and today). But today I was horrible. Just horrible. I tried everything to get him to stop whining (about nothing), but he continued to do so.

So I raised my voice. Like, really raised it. Which is something David and I try to never do. But I did it. And that didn't work. That just broke Reagan's spirit. I feel just awful about it.

Then I cried all the way to lunch. And I thought and thought about what could be making me feel like this. I feel overwhelmed for some reason. And I feel like I need a break because I am not enjoying my time with Reagan. And that just isn't right.

I will say that I feel better right now. Reagan and I had lunch with David, and it helped just to talk things out with him. But I feel like my feelings are selfish. Because if I need a break, then David certainly needs a break. My husband works so hard during the work day, comes home and is super-dad with Reagan, and then continues to work until the early morning hours while I try to have adult conversation with him! (Poor guy.)

Ah. Hopefully I'll wake up in a much better mood tomorrow. And I hope I can use the time that Reagan is at school tomorrow to rest my spirit. Because these two guys in my life deserve to have the best mommy and wife that I can be.

My Journey~~Week 8

I weighed in on Sunday, so I am back to my normal day. Hopefully I'll continue to lose this week because I'm getting pretty close to my first goal of losing 25 pounds.

Weight loss: -2 pounds
Total loss: -18.2 pounds
Goals: to survive and get out of my funk; to lose weight (any amount)

Camera Woes

On Easter Sunday, David accidentally left our camera at the park where we did our Easter egg hunt. So I don't have any pictures of Reagan from Easter in his super snazzy suit.

We found what I call our "brick" of a digital camera~~it is about the size and the weight of an actual brick. (I'm exaggerating, but just a tiny bit.) Pardon me, but it takes crappy pictures.

Anyways, Reagan wore his snazzy suit to church again today because it is absolutely FREEZING outside (again, a tiny exaggeration), and I took this opportunity to get some pictures of him looking so handsome.

But the camera takes crappy pics.

I have doctored these the best I could to fill in some light because the originals are soooo dark. Our kitchen floor is NOT yellow. His pants are NOT black, but brown. And Reagan's liver is working just fine...he is NOT jaundice.

I think you can still tell that he IS cute, though.

The Good Life

I am blessed. This is the good life. Popsicles on the back porch with this guy...it can't get much better than that!

Signs of Warmer Weather

I got tired of going in to get Reagan's hair cut every other week or so. So in March I asked the stylist if it was too early to do his summer cut. Even if she had said "yes" I would have had her do the buzz cut anyways.

I asked her to keep it a bit longer since it was still technically winter...a 4 on top and a 2 on the sides.

That meant nothing to me 3 years ago. Now I know that those numbers are the clipper lengths.

I think.

Anyways, that looked cute and short for about 2 weeks. Then he needed another hair cut!!!!

Thank goodness I married a man that has his own grooming tools.

David used a 2 1/2 all over. Whatever that is...

Doesn't that just look incredibly itchy?? According to Reagan, it was.

My Journey~~Week 7 ??

I'm not weighing in this week. But before anyone thinks, "Oh, ok. Here it comes," I am still losing weight according to my scale. I lose a bit every other day.

The reason I'm not weighing in is a complicated one. Well, not so much complicated as it is just a long drawn out excuse.

I started WW on a Sunday after lunch. So when I go there at 2pm on Sunday to weigh in, I have a belly full of lunch~~usually of salad or of a sandwich. But on the days that I haven't been able to get there on a Sunday I go in on Monday at 10am. This is before anything has even entered my mouth...and therefore my tummy is empty.

So I didn't want to go in on Sunday after my huge (yet healthy) sandwich on Sunday just to see a plus sign instead of a minus sign in front of a number. I'm going to use my one "no weigh in pass" this week so I can get back on track of weighing in (with a full belly) on Sundays.

Makes sense, right?

Alone Time

I am having a few minutes home alone right now. David and Reagan went to dinner tonight while I went to a bible study. I obviously got home before they did, because, well, I'm alone.

I've picked up the kitchen mess. I had some dinner (not a satisfying one). I've checked my email and the blogs.

And now I don't know what to do.

Don't take that as I'm bored. I'm really enjoying this time because I have been so busy for the past few days. I would really like to go and sit in front of the tv.

But there is the problem. I know that as soon as I hit the power button on the remote, I will then hear the sound of David's car in the driveway.

And as much as I love those two boys I'm just not ready to hear that familiar sound yet.

So I'm not going to go and turn the tv on. I'm just going to continue to wander around my house hoping that will buy me a few more minutes of alone time.

My Journey~~Week 6

Sorry for the lack of posts lately. But if you're really itchin' for a Kelly post, I did blog everyday for the months of January, Februrary, and March. Just go to the archives. Hee hee...

I had an ok week. I didn't eat my best of the last 6 weeks, but I did eat better than I have in several years. My obstacle this week was cookies. Reagan wanted to make sugar cookies in the first 1/2 of the week, and Reese's Pieces cookies during the second 1/2. And we make the kind that are already made and cut into cute little circles. Which makes it very easy to pop a raw cookie dough nugget into your mouth. Way too easy.

So I had a few cookies. Not too many, but a few. And I did count them. But I also went into my weekly reserve 35 points. And I haven't done this too much since I started WW.

I did exercise 4 times. Two nights I walked with the boys. And on Saturday and Sunday David and I did yard work. All. day. long. (another post to come soon)

Weight loss: -.6 pounds
Total loss: -16.2 pounds
Goals: Get back on track with water!! Why is it so hard for me to even fit one stinkin' glass of water in per day? Eat more veggies.

April Flowers, Not Showers

Let me just say, I love my husband very, very much.

We have been married almost 6 years. On our anniversaries we try to follow the traditional and/or modern gift ideas for each other. For example, 1st year anniversary traditional gifts should be "paper".

The 4th year anniversary gift is flowers. David is always good about getting me something tangible, but he often times offers a gift that "will be". So on June 22, 2006, I received a beautiful Crate and Barrel blue vase. But I also received a promise to finally do the landscaping in our yard.

The year was 2006.

As of two weeks ago, nothing had happened to our yard.

But everything is changing!! We (uh, David) took out 3+ huge yucca plants that had gone wild. And on Saturday we're going to have dirt and mulch delivered!

Yippee!! I know that this will be a long process since we didn't just win the lottery and therefore can't afford everything all at once. But it is starting to come together.

I'm going to use this small space to remind myself that we started our interior project~~the floors~~in March 2004. And those still aren't done.

By the way, last year's gift was wood. We were going to spend our 5th anniversary at Hyatt's Lost Pines Resort...lots of wood there! But we never got around to that one either.

However, I got this and this instead. I'm not complaining!

Name Change

Reagan kept telling me today:

"Mom! My name is Ginger!!"

Um, ok, Ginger.

My Journey~~Week 5

Ok. To be honest with you, I have been working on this post since about 2pm this afternoon. It is now 11pm. I'm going to be brief so I can go and have a shower and then veg in front of Dancing With the Stars. (Oh please let me be right in that it is on tonight.)

I had a good week! Remember last week? Not so good. Crappy, in fact. And it wasn't crappy because of me being a crappy eater. I just gained over a pound.

But I'm over it.

Until it happens again.

My week would be GREAT, but I didn't meet 2 of my goals. I didn't drink water as much as I should, and I didn't workout.

Thank goodness for new weeks.

Weight loss: -5.2 pounds
Total loss: -15.6 pounds
Goals: water and workout (I'm already on the right track.)

And as promised, (this may be a punishment for you) here is my second picture. I will be taking these every 2 weeks.

If you ask me, I can't tell a difference. In fact, I think I look thinner in the Week 1 picture. Maybe I just lost 15 pounds of hair.

And I apologize for the appearance of tonight's picture. We walked tonight, and my shirt is wet because I was giving Reagan a bath.

It Ain't No Beans and Rice

We have a huge, annoying problem in my house. I could easily tell you that it is all Reagan's fault, but really...it is mine. All mine. I'm the culprit.

Maybe I can throw some of the blame onto David...

Anyways, I always have to make Reagan something different from what David and I are eating at dinner time. Most of the time this doesn't bother me because I do tend to make more grown-up meals...tilapia in about 16 different ways, spiced-up chicken breasts, more tilapia, an occasional steak (if David read the blog, he'd be thinking "when do we get steak?"), tilapia, etc. So usually I'm ok with handing Reagan a plate full of Dino nuggets or a corn dog.

Oh, and lately I've been getting deli ham and turkey sliced at a number 7. That way he gets a "healthier" meat. Because I'm thinking corn dogs aren't the healthiest protein you can have.

There are times that I do make a kid-friendly food. Like spaghetti. What kid doesn't like spaghetti?

Mine.

He won't even try it. "I don't like it." You haven't even tried it. "It's too yucky." Just try it. "I want Dino nuggets."

And here is where I'm at fault. The kid gets Dino nuggets.

So then I started putting both things on his plate. Whatever we're eating, and something he'll eat.

Guess what. Just the Dino nuggets disappear.

Well last night was going to be different! David was at a happy hour and was going to be late. So I decided to make Red and White Tortelli (I highly recommend this. And I'm on Weight Watchers...this is only 8 points a serving!!!) I told Reagan that we were having a special dinner since it was just going to be the two of us.

I even lit the candles on the table because he likes that. (He then asked for [birthday] cake.)

Y'all. I had to bribe the kid to eat one bite of it with an oreo cookie. He had two bites, and I gave him 1/2 the oreo. I told him to eat the rest of his dinner to get the other 1/2 while the 1/2 sat staring at Reagan from across the table.

He ate some more. I was thinking, "Hey! I may have made a family-friendly meal!!" Then I asked him if he liked it, and he said "no".

He had one bite that for some reason didn't agree with his mouth so he spit it out. "I want my black cookie!" (oreo) You need to eat your dinner first. "It's too yucky!" Do you want help?

I had to feed my THREE AND A HALF YEAR OLD dinner. But only 1/2 of what was left on his plate. I was fully expecting him to spit more of it out, but he ate everything I shoved in there.

You'd think I were force feeding him dirt.

Which he'd probably eat.

For a black cookie.

Extreme Hair Makeover

I just got my hair cut. I have always wanted this haircut...in fact, I was in the 6th grade when I chopped my hair right above my shoulders. That was in the 80's when there was no such thing as texturizing, straightening prodcuts, and flat irons.

I took in a picture of Katie Holmes with her new haircut, and I asked for "that". And I got it. And I love it. I'm so disappointed that the picture doesn't really capture how cute it is.

And do I always have those bags under my eyes????